I don't know why I titled this one in this way--it's some random thoughts. Holy Week is coming. I'm feeling a need to pause (don't know how!), but I'd really like to go read this awesome book my pastor leant me which is helping me. And I feel most at peace when, before services at church, we take a few moments to pause and get ready to worship. I love that pause--it is when I most pause, relax, and just let myself be.
This past week has in a sense been difficult--faced with the unknown--do I have MS or not--it's like re-living right before I was diagnosed the first time. I consider how I will feel I am diagnosed with something else. Alternativelty, I consider how I will feel if the diagnosis comes back again as MS. In any case, I think maybe it will be a WHAM! feeling. And hopefully then I will have time to pause and reflect.
Today my daughter wanted to take the dog for a walk we did. Her hair flew behind her--long and so beautiful. Those times with her--watching her run, hearing her giggle, are so precious.
God, help me through these next 2 weeks and help me to find the time to pause and reflect.